Don’t let these two feelings drive you to sin
When not watched out for, bitterness and anger are two feelings that can breed awful sins that might or probably make you feel ashamed and like you messed up big time.
I say that because I have been there today, a few hours after Italy won the Euro 2020 and my desire to see English fans everywhere cry was fulfilled but, at an additional cost on top of their sorrows and sadness.
That night and the crossover to today, the 12th of July, showed me just how rotten bitterness can be and hoW, when mixed with anger and hatred, it can begin to unsettle your soul.
After I woke up, I felt evil and shameful and sorry for how I acted and felt on the day of the match.
Though I was passionate about the game, I let my passion become pervasive to a point where I was clamming my WhatsApp status with a whole documentary of the match, hinting at my despair, showcasing my potent enthusiasm and happiness whenever England missed a penalty and posting a whole bunch of posters regarding England’s victory.
Though celebrating your victories is nothing wrong, I was mostly celebrating England’s loss and all because I wanted their fans to cry and mourn their missed opportunity to lift a cup since forever.
I wanted the fans to cry so bad because of the attitudes they presented throughout the tournament and it was such a sickening feeling, regardless of how they acted.
I wished evil against others out of bitterness and anger for what they did, and when my best friend pointed out that it was bitterness or jealousy, I denied it and said that it was a chant for Denmark, which, in a way, kind of was.
Regardless, it took a while for me to see that I let bitterness and anger cloud my senses and lead me to wish evil and sorrow upon people, something that no Christian should do and it hurt me that I misrepresented God like that.
I could have celebrated Italy’s victory better, being mindful of the feelings of sorrow and mourning of others but, I failed to because I was being far too self-centred and that’s not who God called me to be.
I am to cast away all bitterness, anger and to never shout angrily or say things to hurt others nor do anything evil (Ephesians 4:31) but, I failed enormously for I did them all and though I am certain that God has forgiven me, I do want to point out that I am not proud of how I acted and if you are an England fan, I am so sorry.
I already apologised to God because such attitudes go against who He is and who I am in Him but, I also need to apologise to every England fan out there.
Celebrating our victories is commendable but doing so with the intent to hurt others is evil and though I stumbled, I know that God will help me to steer away from such things.
God will cleanse and transform my heart, as he has been doing, and He will lead me to love and be kind to people in all circumstances, forgiving them just as He forgives me (Ephesians 4:32).
That is why, if you are in a place where you are holding on to bitterness, anger, jealousy or/and hatred, I urge you to give it all to God and let Him liberate you from those awful feelings before they drive you to act against your identity in Christ and your faith in Him.
Regardless of what happens, let's always seek to live for God, spread the Gospel, love and good vibes!
Spread Kindness and Love to a stranger or ask God for forgiveness for being bitter.